Behind the Scenes

Photo by Sam Wolff

Photo by Sam Wolff

As I’m sitting here pondering the right words to go with my thoughts for this message, I find myself so amazed at how absolutely freeing this will be for me and so many others. A lot of people will look at me and think, “Wow. She’s got it all together. “ The truth of the matter is, no one does. You heard me... no one does. 

Now you may think I’m being negative or pessimistic, but hear me out for a second. I think so many of us, especially in this day and age with social media being part of our daily lives, are so caught up in comparing our everyday lives to others. It’s true. As the saying goes, “quit comparing your behind the scenes to someone else’s highlight reel.” So many of us look at the gift that life has given them, and they fail to see the grind that it took to get that gift. 

Isn’t that true sometimes for you? Do you find yourself thinking,

“Why am I the only one who is struggling with this problem?”  
“How did they get so lucky?” 
“Why can’t that be me?” 

Can I let you in on a little secret? Me too. I have had those thoughts. Let’s be real here: no one is perfect. We have all had weak moments where we have thought about those things, haven’t we? 

I want to encourage some of you today with a sneak peek my behind the scenes story starting from when I got involved with my business until now. Maybe some of you can relate. 

When I was first approached with this product, I had been dieting and exercising with a friend and seeing no results. I had been ill for a year beforehand with doctors and hospital visits more times than I can count. I was in pain all the time. There was not a morning where I didn’t wake up feeling sick to my stomach. Some mornings I wasn’t even able to get ready for work, let alone drive, because I was so sick to my stomach. And if I forgot to try and eat something the second my eyes woke up? Forget it. That was the end of me. 

The hospitals and doctors started to know who I was because I saw them so frequently. For a while, they couldn’t figure out where the pain came from. Later we found out it was ulcers and acid reflux. At another point I had kidney stones, so they thought I could also be gluten intolerant. I was given a lot of medication that I was supposed to take daily, but if I missed a day for whatever reason, the symptoms and pain would start again. I gained a lot of weight and became very self-conscious about my appearance. 

No one’s journey is perfect, but when you know what you want in life, you have to focus on the things that make your life worth living, and the rest will follow.

I was approached about this skinny wrap and was a little offended at first. (I’ve never mentioned that out loud.) You see, I was in a bad place mentally at the time. I thought that because people would often ask me if I was pregnant because my belly was so swollen from all the medicine that I would never get rid of it. But eventually I was told there was something for my acid reflux and I quickly jumped on board to try a wrap. I thought, “why not?” 

I sat there with a wrap on, listening to all about the amazing products and the business opportunity, and the gears in my head started to spin. I was working a job that took advantage of me. I was unhappy and I wanted to move out but couldn’t afford it. I couldn’t afford a second job because I was working more hours than I should have with full-time school, and no one wanted to hire me or work around my crazy schedule. I thought... “Could this be for me?” 

In the 45 minutes my wrap was on, I didn’t see a difference. I was so discouraged. I felt awful but tried to still be hopeful. I really wanted it to work. But then the thoughts came:

“I’m not a salesperson.”
“I’m not a mom.”
“No one will want this or believe me.”
“I don’t have time for something else.”
“What will my friends and family think?”
“I doubt this will work for me.”
“I’m not skinny enough to sell these products.” 

The next morning I woke up, still not convinced but I still wanted to see if it worked. Well, wouldn’t you know... it DID! I was blown away by my transformation. My belly hadn’t been that flat in a long time. I felt so good about myself for the first time in a long time. It gave me hope. 

Photo by Moeko Munaretto

Photo by Moeko Munaretto

My excitement turned into me telling whoever would listen. I wanted to share it with everyone. Some people were excited for me. Some people wanted to try it too. Some people looked at me like I was crazy. Some people ignored me. But you know what? I was truthfully only focused on the ones who listened. I grew my business quickly with people that I knew. 

Eventually, I had to get out of my comfort bubble and speak to people I didn’t know. I ran out of the people who knew and wasn’t afraid to talk to. With help from my peers I gained experience, and with experience comes confidence. 

I found out later in my journey that all my problems with my stomach stemmed from an anxiety disorder. I was having panic attacks and I had to deal with a lot of my past demons and having to heal the hurts. I would have times where I couldn’t stop all the noise in my head from worrying. Some days were a struggle for me to even get dressed in the morning. I had to work a lot on having faith, despite the tough times. 

Thanks to good nutrition I’m getting from my foods and my products, I am happily medication free, and feeling more confident than I have in years. I found my faith again that I had lost for a good chunk of my life. I stopped caring what other people think of me. I have only ONE person to please and that’s God, and I have NOTHING to prove to anyone.  

Am I perfect? Absolutely not.

Do I still struggle? Yes. 

Do I still get nervous? Almost every day. 

Are all days good? Not unless I look through the right lenses for the day at the good and stop focusing so much on the bad. 

Do I still fall down? Yes. But the truth is, it’s not about how many times you fall, it’s about how many times you get back up. 

No one’s journey is perfect, but when you know what you want in life, you have to focus on the things that make your life worth living, and the rest will follow. I have found along this journey that every storm that’s gone through and tried to destroy my life has equipped me for the next phase. Every battle has molded me into the person I am today. I regret nothing. I know that despite any obstacle, I will overcome. 

So the next time you are scrolling through your social media feed, feeling sorry for yourself, feeling like you are the only one going through what you’re going through, I want to tell you that you have a friend in me. I know how you feel right this very moment, and my friend, you are not alone in this season of your life. God has a plan for you, and if you just stay hopeful and thankful even when things aren’t going your way, I promise you that you will get better. Don’t give up. Don’t lose hope. If I can overcome, so can you. 

And one more thing — my greatest fear of all. I don’t like bothering other people with my problems. I have a hard time being vulnerable. But the very thing I fear is going to bless someone else today. So if you don’t feel like doing something, I DARE you to take a step of faith today. Be blessed friends.